Kapag nagkaanak ako at lalaki ang papangalan ko ay Paul Joshua. Bakit? Kasi si Paul at Joshua yung ginamit ni Lord para malaman ko yung calling ko. And it will be a reminder sakin ng promises ni Lord.

Yesterday, I was like “walang kwenta naman oh” and “Bakit di ko feel magpray!” There are nights that I just want to cry because of the unspeakable joy, there are nights that I just want to cry because of the formidable desire to serve him, but the night is different, it is as if I left my soul somewhere. So I looked inside to see “what to pray?”

I searched through my memories and was surprised to finally see those mind-blowing events. Those dark times, I didn’t noticed before there was light in the background. Yes, how can I see it when I am too focused on the troubles.

Why do I have to forget that His promise came even before I knew my purpose? Why do i have to forget that the strength I have for my dream came from His promises?

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go. - Joshua 1:9

My summer started in February at this place.

Hot Air Balloon Festival at Clark, Pampanga. Photo courtesy of Pinoy Adventurista. Too bad wala ko naabutan na hot air balloon dahil tamad tamad bumangon sa umaga. Pero I stayed to watch the OPM means Rock concert para kay Yeng na di naman pala nakasched nung araw na yun. Hahaha. So in short, FAIL! Isa lang ang napala ko.. NANGITIM AKO LALU! Sa subrang init yung puting inipon ko ng 8 years nawala ng isang araw.

Pero oks lang kasi bawing bawi naman sa March Story ko.

Pure adventure naman ang trip namen ng March. Usapan lang is swimming sa Antipolo na nauwi sa trekking sa Tanay. Pagudpaguran kame pero worth it. Adventure eh, di ko alam gagastos ako para mapagod! Hahaha.

Pero walang tatalo sa April Story ko, kasi yung pagod ko ng buong buhay ko bawing bawi sa Pico de Loro. Hahaha.

Pero ayun yung week after sa Pico de Loro pinagod ulit ako ng Potipot! Hahahaha. Mahaba pa byahe kesa sa swimming namen eh! Haha.

So how will I end my summer?

Sabi nung may-ari ng picture na to sa Alaminos daw yan. Kapad hindi ko nakita to ah. Two reasons bakit gusto ko pumunta ng hundred Island despite sa sinasabi nilang hindi na raw maganda at hindi na raw hundred islands to. Una dahil nga sa pic na to at pangalawa dahil it brings back the memory of Gerald and Kim. hahahaha. Chos! It brings back kasi my childhood memory, kasi bata pa lang ako pangarap ko na to puntahan pati yung mga lugar na pinag-aaralan sa Sibika at Kultura!

So excited na talaga ko pati sa Summer 2014!

Tomorrow will officially start my midyear. Well, God has answered half of my prayer bucket. Way to go! But I can definitely say that God is at work, even if some days seem wasted, God is always at work! :)

Establish my heart Father, I want to continue with our relationship! :) I love You! :)

A space launcher, sent out to the universe to discover a secret. Yes, it may be the loneliest travel. It will search the abyss, the unfathomable darkness and emptiness. It will wander aimlessly. What is the assurance that it will even reach the goal?

Pure darkness, emptiness, when it will end? What is its hope? But it cannot return empty-handed. It must continue amidst the uncertainty, may it be 10 or 1000 or 10000 years, the journey will not end.

I’m not the launcher, I’m the abyss it’s searching. There is nothing in me, just darkness. I’m not sure either how long must it wander before it find something.

But we will have hope. The God who created the earth wonderfully will also create in me beauty that will amaze the world. God is always at work! :)

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JESUS said : “IT IS I, DO NOT BE AFRAID” - John 6:16-21

Back story: The disciples were traveling via boat. It was dark and Jesus had not yet join them. Heading forward to the destination, they saw a man walking on water. They were terrified for they thought it was a ghost. But JESUS said : “IT IS I, DO NOT BE AFRAID.” Before they knew it, they were already in the shore.

I learned 3 things here. First, God will never leave us. Often times we think that He had already left us, but take courage because while you’re sailing your boat, He is walking in water. Second, there may be terrifying events in our lives, but again I say, take courage because sometimes God will use our adversity to put us in a better place. On those times when everything seems unbearable, always remember Jesus telling you “It is I, do not be afraid.” It is God, working on you! And the last lesson I got is again to take courage, endure and have patience because before you knew it, you are already in the destination!

God bless!

They were saying among themselves, “Who will roll away the stone from the door of the tomb for us?” Mark 16:3

Many times we are troubled by things that are impossible for us to do. Yes, some things are really out of our control, we are only human and we are limited. There are things that we cannot do, sometimes we are helpless on our own. But behold..

Looking up, they saw that the stone was rolled back. - Mark 16:4

It is already taken care of. Just look up and you will see that it is done. Keep the faith, your stone will be rolled for you.